Monday, June 27, 2011

无题

梦的涟漪,
唤醒振奋的呐喊,
未来的憧憬,
点缀着静谧的星空,
鼓起,膨胀;膨胀,鼓起。

失败的怨言,
却像猛兽的吼声,
划破沉睡的夜空,
刺耳,触目惊心。

勇气的歌声,
遏止了猛兽的咆哮,
又像温柔的乐章,
安抚受伤而颤抖的灵魂。

勇气带着希望之火,
照亮了蒙胧的幽暗,
打破了绝望的惆怅。

“站起来吧,
    站起来吧,
        站起来吧!”

鼓舞的风声吹嘘着,
由缓至急,
渐弱渐强,
像万马奔驰,
又像瀑布从高处而下,
急骤的呼喊着:

”站起来吧,
    站起来吧,
    站起来吧!!!"

忽然,
一片寂静。

希望之火灭了,
却化成第一到曙光,
挥洒在大地。

梦哭了,
却也笑了。

它相信,
未来能将它变回现实。

总有一天……



Saturday, June 4, 2011

untitled =PPP

To all of my friends:
    One year had passed... my blog was not yet been updated for one year, haha... lazy... but actually just don't want to remember what had happened within this one year, i even stopped writing my dairy. i believed that the memorable event will stay in my mind for a long time...i just want to delete the events that made me feel sad and speechless...like someone said: forgive and forget... so sorry yea~ my friends, made u dissapointed everytime u guys went inside my blog, may be i'll not update my blog too often like u guys for the coming days, but thank you for being able to support me when i'm down, i'm just too weak without God's leading and u guys' supportations... Now, i really work hard to find myself back, to find the innerpeace in God , yea~ that sounds great, but hard to start and continue... life is still going on ... we can't stop at one destination for too long till we forget the target or goal we have to achieve, everybody has their own mission given by God, His bleesings will always enough for us... future, which is very interesting but unpredictable, we just can put our imaginations in it as we are too little in this universe...
    Ha! why am i keep talking about these kind of stuff? ya~ thank you for those who had hurted my feelings and my soul as well, i'm just have too many things to learn to become a better person, i'm still learning...
Anyway, be blessed! u guys! we are always sisters and brothers in Christ... =D don't let me feel dissapointed next time! for our future, we fight! =]
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Friday, May 7, 2010

Friendship Forever

       Two days ago, I hung up with my friends,the last three days in Sibu before I go for matriculation in Labuan. We had our dinner in Secret Recipe. Everybody was excited and talked non-stopped while waiting for our dinner. Time passed really fast, even me myself didn't realize that we had finished our secondary studies. Friends, some grew up with me together since primary school, some of them whom we became friends in secondary school, only time will prove the relationship between all of us, showered with encouragement, filled with love and caring.
       We are forced to seperate for our future, to further our studies whenever is, overseas or local. It's hard to say goodbye, don't know when will we meet again, don't know if we meet again a few years later, will we still recognise each other? Hope so....Just please don't lose the contact, just keep in touch, my friends, just friendship forever =]
       Then now, let me say, "Strive for your best in the future, God bless !! "

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

母爱 vs 残酷

        当每个人说起母爱时,都会觉得这份爱是温馨的,是幸福的,因为说“母爱真伟大”的人几乎都是在浓浓的母爱下成长。然而,有时母爱虽然伟大,却含带着几许的辛酸……和残酷。
        上个月,有一只大肚子的母猫,几乎每天来我家,在我家“喵喵”叫,大概是从哪只“ 街坊”口中得知我家很慷慨,常常把剩饭给流浪猫吃(其实都没有夸张到“常常”〕。因为有前几次猫猫在我家白吃白喝还赖着不走,养成懒惰的习惯后被我妈赶出家门的经验,怕重蹈覆辙,所以对它的叫声不加理会。那只母猫每每在我们吃午餐的时候不是跑到后院喵喵叫,就是跑到前门喵喵叫。虽然如此,我们还是不理它,怕等到它生完小猫,我们要负责它们一家不懂几口的生计。
        结果不久后,母猫诞下五只小猫,有两只在几天后奄奄一息,剩下三只嗷嗷待哺的小猫。起先,母猫很爱护小猫,这边舔舔,那边舔舔,但是到小猫断奶之后,母猫就失去了踪影。小猫很明显,还没向母猫学捕猎物的技术,整天喵喵叫,而且失去了母猫的庇佑,就失去了安全感,我一接近它们,它们就像受惊吓似的马上躲起来。它们整天喵喵叫,我还以为母猫会回来,结果经几天的观察,证实母猫已经抛弃小猫了!当我把一碗白饭倒在它们面前时,它们不是很相信我,不敢接近白饭。但是当它们知道那是可吃的食物的时候,就争先恐后地强着吃,看来它们已经饿肚子饿坏了。
        看着小猫狼吞虎咽,觉得那只母猫真是没有母爱,把小猫弃在这里就这样毫无音讯,让小猫在这里活活等着饿死。但是转念又想,这只母猫可能是在外找不着足够的食物才会让小猫呆在我家,至少在我家小猫还有一点存活的机率……
        反观现代的社会,也同样的有着面临经济拮据的父母,在无力抚养孩子的情况下,有些父母把孩子弃在托儿所、孤儿院,甚至教堂门口,不是因为他们冷血,而是他们有着我们看不到的对孩子的爱,但是他们的爱是残酷的,就算生活环境改善,也不愿接孩子们回家,因为他们觉得他们不配当父母,没有脸去见他们曾经抛弃过的儿女……所以当我们在报章上看到关于此类的新闻时,不要急着斥责他们,可能他们有他们的苦衷……当然,我所说的父母不是那些不愿为自己不正当的行为负责而抛弃小孩的父母。

三只小猫在争先恐后地狼吞虎咽……


Monday, May 3, 2010

岁月-色彩的涟漪

小时的脑袋,大慨五六岁吧,装满了黄色的世界。喜欢黄色,不是因为它很独特,而是它满身镀上有太阳光辉的伟大精神。换一个角度来说,我喜欢的是太阳光的金黄色;因为它能驱走我认为是鬼怪出没时期的黑暗。调皮的时候,母亲总是说:“再不听话?再不听话就叫妖怪来抓你!”小时的心灵是很容易被吓着的,所以我会在第一时间安静下来。现在的我,会嘲笑当年的无知,但是在嘲笑的当儿,会多一份珍惜,珍惜当年的天真无邪。当一个人在逐渐成长时,许多小时拥有的,将在无形中逐渐消失得无影无踪,再也寻不回来了。
八九岁时,喜欢蓝色,因为蓝色代表和平;遗憾的是,这是人类带来的和平。那时,喜欢缠着阿姨,听她诉说着日本占领东南亚的故事,听她说人们怎样被日本兵压迫,听她说日本兵怎样被打败……又有一段时间喜欢缠着阿爸,要他告诉我共产党怎样在无政府的情况下,残暴地统治我国,听他说他的朋友怎样参加共产党,最后怎样被处决……在这“听他说怎样……”的童年里,我变得懂事些,觉得现在大家能和平的活着,真的要感恩,因为这是一种福……
进入少年的花样年华,我开始爱上紫色,因为它代表沉默,还有淡淡的忧郁。那时觉得这紫色最了解我心中的想法。发育时期,我变得特别敏感,朋友的一举一动,父母的一言一词,会让我高兴一整天;有者,会让我闷闷不乐……直到遇上值得让我开怀大笑的趣事……
我不喜欢把心情写在脸上,有者,只会发发牢骚,剩下的,就会在日记本上发泄,琐进我的记忆深处,不容任何人发现它。曾几何时,我怀疑我患上了忧郁症,有几个夜晚我都是含泪进入梦乡,不然就是频频失眠……庆幸的是,我没有放弃我的信仰,我把一切烦恼及重担交托给阿爸父,求他赐我乐观的心……庆幸的是,我有一群好朋友,虽然有时他们不是很了解我的想法,但是,他们还是会在适当的时间给予适当的鼓励……
从忧郁的人生走出来,我开始蜕变成成熟乐观的女孩,这蜕变是我在几年后无意间发现的,发现时,真的感到幸福,因为自己所拥有的福分,是神赐给我,是够我用的。十六七岁时,开始喜欢绿色,不是青色,因为青色少了活力,少了生命的动力。绿色包含许多色彩及感情,蓝色就在绿色怀中,和谐、温馨、勇敢、开朗、还有,生命的光辉……。在绿色的人生中,我相信我的未来能荣神益人,因为我会努力向前,向着标竿直跑……。常常我会回想那段由紫到绿的回忆……因为那段是我目前认为最绚丽的回忆……

有人曾经问我,为什么不选择红色?红色?不、不、不……红色太强烈了,它的热情会使我容易骄傲,它的热会把我燃烧至殆尽……嘿嘿,因为我是个低调的人。

Sunday, May 2, 2010

做个乐观的人

下定决心,
要划得比流星更璀璨,
要比海雕在更高远的云霄翱翔,
要比野马在更辽阔的平原奔驰。


情绪的激昂,
崇高的梦想,
化作心中的呐喊,
站在世界的顶峰,
大声宣告:
“     我能做到!”


努力,
比别人多十倍,
耐心,
比别人多十倍,
爱心,
比别人多十倍,
坚持,
比别人多十倍,
刚强,
比别人多十倍,
有何理由,
阻止我不能成功?


虽然有时,
心中焦虑,
虽然有时,
被自卑吞噬,
虽然有时,
糜萎不振,
虽然有时,
几乎断了再勇往直前的决心……


我会换个角度,
透过另一个空间的窗口,
了望过去未来、未来过去、
即使现在,
变化无穷的世界,
快乐不快乐,
忧愁不忧愁,
烦恼不烦恼,
失望不失望,
感动不感动……


将化成我的动力,
努力向前的动力,


因为,
下定决心要活得更精彩,
下定决心不要让自己错过,
下定决心要站在梦想的舞台上,
下定决心要下定决心……


因为我下定决心要做个乐观的人……

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Last day in GB & orchestra ='/

Drill, Drill, Drill!!!
today's drill camp... As a commander...I "shouted" as loud as possible, as today got F1competition, I thought...My voice had to compete with the sound of the engines =.=
 However, I will miss the officers & girls in 5th Sibu, who gave me a lot of sweet memories... =')

I felt no regret to attend my last-time-orchestra. With all my friends, took part in different instruments ( just cello, first violin & second violin ), we enjoyed the music from our Father in Heaven while playing....so nice~
I didn't espect Ling Ping laoshi (teacher) treated us at qing shang food court after practising...haha...the first time, may be my last time, with the members ... & teachers, will miss all of them... ^^